Glad it's Friday, thinking about weekend

Guess this is getting to be a place for me to write things... which I guess is the intent. I feel like Dougy Howser, just not as smart.
Wish that today had felt like yesterday.
Guess most of it was how the day felt, it wasn't really too bad but it was hard and I spent most of the day on one problem, which turned out easy to fix but I had a bugger of a time finding.
At least I got a nice thankyou note from the people who needed the system.
Before that I had written an email because they had sent out a note cc'd their management indicating how they needed it so badly and why it was taking time. Like I said yesterday I wrote a good note and basically told them and their management that "I can't make hardware appear from thin air" and they hadn't planned on doing this and therefore I had no funding so basically I figured out how to do it with leftover and extra stuff.
Just wish it felt like more like I really get credit for some of the stuff I try so hard to do, kinda like Scotty on the Enterprise, he saved their butt so many times but Kirk always looked like the hero. And that feeling at work combine with the feeling at home has made me really depressed today. I asked Marianne her opinion today and she feels a bit like it's not right that some in the group are taking so many "I'm working at home days", especially Kerry! He is even "working" from Florida this week.. BTW his new girlfriend lives there... hmmm

Guess I can't expect to be up all the time... but I'm so tired of being down. Makes me feel stupid but I just feel like crying today because the things that I've worked toward seem to have evaporated. I feel really lonely and lost despite the things I've been doing. It's been great having Mike to work with, he always seems to keep a really good attitude and works really hard.

Guess I will eventually find new things to work toward both at work and home but on days like this it is hard to be outgoing enough to find them and difficult to see the good options thru to downsides.

Anyway!
I really appreciated the neck rub and thanks for asking, it is really crunchy tonight, I still can't find a way to relax it despite doing exercises and trying to really relax those muscles.

Sounds like maybe you are talking with your friend from Seattle, I honestly wish I could find some things to discuss which would make you laugh like your friends when they call, guess the stuff we need to discuss now is too serious.
Maybe things would be better if I quite taking them seriously but that just doesn't seem right because they are serious. But I'm thinking that maybe if I forget about that it will help. Maybe I should read joke books!
Would that help?